Heather Rae El Moussa and son Tristan.Photo:Andrea Domjan Photography

Heather Rae El Moussa not breastfeeding Tristan

Andrea Domjan Photography

Heather Rae El Moussais sharing an update on her breastfeeding journey.

TheSelling Sunsetstar, 36, shared a few photos of herself and her 8-month-old son Tristan onher InstagramWednesday, showing her little guy a white collared shirt and black bow tie. Tristan stares up at his mom as she places him on his feet, gazing down.

In her lengthy caption, El Moussa revealed that she was having mixed emotions after realizing her son doesn’t want to breastfeed anymore. “8 1/2 months postpartum. As I write this, my heart is full but also my mama heart is a little sad because my big boy does not want to breast-feed anymore,” she began.

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Heather Rae El Moussa poses with son Tristan.Andrea Domjan Photography

Heather Rae El Moussa not breastfeeding Tristan

“It’s bittersweet for me because breast-feeding as a new mommy was something I grew to love — I love the bond, the skin to skin, the cuddles, and if I’m being honest, it would have been harder for me to make the decision to stop. About 2 1/2-3 weeks ago, Tristan started to get un-interested & would just pull away and blow bubbles but he would still end up enjoying our morning feeds… until today 😢.”

“And I don’t want to force him so I’m trusting the process, like I have from the start. I will still offer it to him but he’s a busy boy these days & is just so distracted. I do want to say that I’m really proud of myself that I made it this long. I passed my goal of 4 months, then 6 months, and I’m proud of my Tristan bear,” the proud mom continued.

“Breast-feeding was something that was initially hard for him when he was just a newborn because he struggled with histongue, cheek, & lip ties. But we were a team. It definitely wasn’t the easiest process and I had so many tearful nights & stressful times. Breastfeeding is so freaking hard to begin with and there was many times I wondered if I was drying up or wondering if he was getting enough milk.”

Heather Rae El Moussa poses with Tristan.Andrea Domjan Photography

Heather Rae El Moussa not breastfeeding Tristan;

“But at the end of the day, I’m so proud of us and so proud of all the mothers out there- no matter how long or short you decide to breastfeed or breastfed at all because you are incredible and I hope you never feel (or felt) ashamed or let anyone judge you for YOUR process.”

The reality star shares Tristan with her husbandTarek El Moussa, 42. She is also stepmom to Tarek’s kids Brayden, 8, and Taylor, 13, whom he shares with ex-wifeChristina Hall.

source: people.com